the end of life...

20.6.2011
around 7p.m  i received a call from sis...
she told me that grandpa,had passed away...
instantly, i felt numb and cried the very next moment...
the thing that i hate and fear most had took place...


had a week leave...
manage grandpa's funeral..
i thought i will be strong enough...
not to cry again upon reaching...
but the moment grandpa told me that grandpa said that he love me lots,
i just broke down...
i am really bad and unforgivable...
he loves me most...
by the time he was leaving,I'm not there with him...
somehow if i was there,i can't imagine how i will react...


but that's life...
i will take this as a loophole...
grandpa unable to jump over this hole...
so he is now crossing the bridge to the another end...
a new world=H.E.A.V.E.N
escaping and free of pain...
where peace and serenity takes place..
and I'm sure he will be up there watching and guiding all of us...


it's the moment when touched grandpa's body inside the coffin...
he was cold..
but the gentle smile on his face...
the last time ever  for me to see him again...
the heart-to-heart talk...
i told him i was proud to be his granddaughter...
may we will be close relatives,the blood ties...
the next new life...
and leave this world to another world peacefully...


it's the last day of funeral...
we need to grab the soil and place them where the coffin was buried..
i grab the soil and place them somewhere near the coffin...
and take a glance for the last time..
and never look back again...
and that's the end of grandpa's life journey...
and a new reborn..


but...
there i will not be able to call him grandpa,see him again,taste his soup,shopping with him,bring him to the park,no one teach me to drive the manual car...
grandpa was the only one dare to teach me driving the manual car..
that time i still haven got my licence...
so that's him...
always think for me,sacrificed everything for me...
I'm sure i won't be able to find anyone there that's willing to hear all my grudge and advise me softly...



but...I'm not worry at all...
logically he seem to leave me..
I'm sure our bond will joint till forever...
and he is now up there watching for me..
not to take any wrong steps..


there's no use crying...
now i shall look to the front, the future...
as long as the great moments and memories...
that no one else can take away...
will remain and be with me till the end...
the LORD had took grandpa away..
but HE is unable to take away the memories between me and grandpa...
at least there's the legacy grandpa leave behind..
the memories that will last till forever...
at least we had the moments before...
and there will be no regret..