♥ Thank You For The Broken Heart ♥

♥ thank you for the broken heart ♥

Everything I know about love I learned from you, from you

And everything I know about pain I learned from you, from you

You were my only, You were my first

You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt

But the most important thing you ever gave me,

You was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah

And thank you for the permanent scar

Cause if it wasn't for you

I might forget, how it feels to let go

And how it feels to get a brand new start

So thank you for the broken heart

I still remember when you called

and said that he didn't mean anything

How could you expect me to look at you the same way

You were my only but not my last

You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past

The most important thing you ever gave me was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah

And thank you for the permanent scar

Cause if it wasn't for you

I might forget, how it feels to let go

And how it feels to get a brand new start

So thank you for the broken heart

And everytime I find myself alone in pieces

I find myself I'll just remember when you hurt me and I made it

So thank you for the broken heart

And thank you for the permanent scar

Cause if it wasn't for you

I wouldn't be here, With the love of my life all my pain disappeared

I've come so far

So thank you for the broken heart

I thank you, I thank you

For the broken heart

Broken heart

My broken heart...

~ that girl ~

that girl....
a very nice song from him...
i started to love this from him....
the lyrics....does he mean to me...?
lol....im the one thinking too much perhaps...
cut the crap....let's enjoy this song...
hopefully u will find your true one,unfortunately i'm not -that girl-....

♥ may u just stay there for a while  ♥

...i love u,more than life...

~ the selfish girl ~

it's all about the -selfish girl-

...

...

...

demanding the others to sacrifice for her...

but she definitely will think over again,if it's worth for her to sacrifice in return...

the girl who demanding the 100% true love from her lovers...
but she definitely loves herself more than others...
the girl who wants everyone to tolerate with her...
but she cannot even stand with the slightest ignorance...

the girl who always feeling unsafe,insecure....
although with the closest ones...
perhaps she trust only herself...
but she eventually found out that she can't even count on herself,stand firm on her own part....
she......is suffering...
in a critical situation....

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i am the -SELFISH GIRL-
the feeling of dreadfulness,in a horror...
with my own-self....
the feeling of insecure,nervous,anxiety....
is killing me slowly...
since when i feel and think this awful way...
that should not be me...


perhaps it's from the moment i realise i shall trust no one 100%...
because one day i might find out the real truth...
that u are lying....
and i won't accept this truth....
it's not the truth that u had lie to me,it's the truth that i had choose to believe in u 100%...
i don't wanna to take this risk...
hurting myself all over again...

# even the prettiest flower will wilt one day,it's the nature way of teaching me....
nothing really last forever #
so don't hold so hard ,although u think it's worthwhile...

♥♥ loving myself more than anything ♥♥ 

~it's end tonight ~

finally finish my critical thinking presentation...
after all our video ROCKS...
somehow i was stunned and amazed with the question by Jack...
ooh he really knows more,knowledgeable presentable,available...~
finish the video part,it's time for the long essay...
hopefully we will do very well generally....

i shall interpret this quote as below...
 when things are going through ups and downs...
we shall never easily give up or get frust...

instead i believe as long as we hold on and determine till the next,there sure be a miracle...
GOD will lead us the right path,
there's always a chance to turn a new leaf..

hence never too late to forget , never too late to regret...~

~ TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS ~

IT'S OKAY...
when you fail,when you fall,...
when your heart breaks,your spirit down,
you are  in despair,frustrated,irritated,disappointed,helpless....
REMEMBER....
all this are the hurdles,in our life journey...
perhaps because you have been through all this ups-and-downs..
only u will appreciate more our own life..
don't be afraid to fall...
it's bad  just because u are afraid to lose or fall,you don't dare to try...
then for a lifetime you won't achieve success...

so from now onwards ...
i shall keep on reminding myself...
|it's OK to fail now,as long I'm not giving up...
the moment i fall,i will rise myself...

LYRICS FROM BRUNO MARS : TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS !!
[ just like all the seasons never stay the same ]
[ all around me i can feel a change ]
[ i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me ]
 [leave the past behind me, today my life begins ]
[ a whole new world is waiting , it's mine for the taking ]
[ i know i can make it, today my life begins ] 
[ yesterday has come and gone ]
[ and I've learnt how to leave it where it is ]
[ and i see that i was wrong ]
[ for ever doubting i could win ] 

yesterday u fail, but today the whole  new life begins...

leave behind the past...

today the whole new life begins...


everything gonna be fine if u look at them at the bright side...


TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS..~




^^ CHEERS ^^

~ completed ~



yesterday went for karaoke with ah lee and the gang...
when we drive through the back alley,we were stop by the police..
oh gosh we almost fainted...
as because his car had been installed with accessories...
then the police wanna to fine us...
but ah lee manage to solve and handle them,instead he challenge the cops to bring us  to the police station...
then my friend,ask me to tell the police that i know the law...
that I'm a lawyer...
then i straightforward scold him...
hey then only we will get caught ,as we are telling false testimony...



after the -mess-...
we continue our -K-...
ha ha from 11p.m we sang till almost 2.30a.m...
actually i don't really feel we had been there for long time...
we totally gone mad,singing our heart out..
uh it's so fun ~
our last song-PARTY ROCK ANTHEM-...
and our next venue,the -club-...
after my mid-exam,here we come...

then today woke up at 8a.m...
to take our video...
thanks GOD,everything goes smoothly just now...
and as the lead actress...
oh i was so tired and worn out..
keep on -NG-...
then act as a couple with the guy...
quite nice-looking...
and he is so damn genius...
ooh no...i likely prefer this -clever type-
we keep on retake the scenes which we go for dating...
lalala...~
the others seem laughing their heart out...
after finish editing,i sure will share the video here..
~ LOLL ~

huh later going to hide ourselves for 3 hours at other place...
as our apartment here will carry out the -fogging-...
to terminate the mosquitoes...
aiyoyo rarely have time to revise my critical thinking...
then tomorrow need head to the town with my -hella- friends...
confirm gonna be an exercise for our -jaws- and -mouth-...
anyway then i shall revise till the dawn...
no way only fun,..
now going for a revision...

@@ CHEERS @@

~ feel the heat ~

no no no no...

next week and that's my nightmare...
critical thinking exam...
OH i haven really cover the topics yet...
indeed the topics that i had read through...
i haven really digest them...
indeed if i had digest some of the topics...
i haven manage to extract the clues...
OH MY GOD...!!!






so how ??
i shall only sacrifice my sleeping time,play-time,....
IN THIS FEW DAYS TIME , DIGEST AND INTERPRET ALL THE PREMISES...
aiyoooo gotta go for critical thinking lecture...
class gonna end at 10.30...
oh i hate it...
but come on...the last lecture before our very exam next week...
GOD BLESS ME...
hopefully my slides and group presentation will go smoothly...
no its a must to SCORE...!!!

NOW ONLY I FEEL THE HEAT...
the tension...
that time is running out...
lol...~

~MoNsTer~

just heard lady gaga's monster...
'he ate my heart'
'he ate my heart'
he ate-ate-ate my heart out...
oooh he's a monster..
a monster...


thinking of you when listening to this  statements...
u seem more unpredictable than the weather...
sometimes so fair,sunny...
but the very next moment u turned windy,chilly...
how can i stand with all this such nuisance...
lol...the gap...
let's put an end to all this unworthy trust...
the story that won't have a happy ending..



so i shall save my heart before u eat them up~

@@ cheers @@

the end of life...

20.6.2011
around 7p.m  i received a call from sis...
she told me that grandpa,had passed away...
instantly, i felt numb and cried the very next moment...
the thing that i hate and fear most had took place...


had a week leave...
manage grandpa's funeral..
i thought i will be strong enough...
not to cry again upon reaching...
but the moment grandpa told me that grandpa said that he love me lots,
i just broke down...
i am really bad and unforgivable...
he loves me most...
by the time he was leaving,I'm not there with him...
somehow if i was there,i can't imagine how i will react...


but that's life...
i will take this as a loophole...
grandpa unable to jump over this hole...
so he is now crossing the bridge to the another end...
a new world=H.E.A.V.E.N
escaping and free of pain...
where peace and serenity takes place..
and I'm sure he will be up there watching and guiding all of us...


it's the moment when touched grandpa's body inside the coffin...
he was cold..
but the gentle smile on his face...
the last time ever  for me to see him again...
the heart-to-heart talk...
i told him i was proud to be his granddaughter...
may we will be close relatives,the blood ties...
the next new life...
and leave this world to another world peacefully...


it's the last day of funeral...
we need to grab the soil and place them where the coffin was buried..
i grab the soil and place them somewhere near the coffin...
and take a glance for the last time..
and never look back again...
and that's the end of grandpa's life journey...
and a new reborn..


but...
there i will not be able to call him grandpa,see him again,taste his soup,shopping with him,bring him to the park,no one teach me to drive the manual car...
grandpa was the only one dare to teach me driving the manual car..
that time i still haven got my licence...
so that's him...
always think for me,sacrificed everything for me...
I'm sure i won't be able to find anyone there that's willing to hear all my grudge and advise me softly...



but...I'm not worry at all...
logically he seem to leave me..
I'm sure our bond will joint till forever...
and he is now up there watching for me..
not to take any wrong steps..


there's no use crying...
now i shall look to the front, the future...
as long as the great moments and memories...
that no one else can take away...
will remain and be with me till the end...
the LORD had took grandpa away..
but HE is unable to take away the memories between me and grandpa...
at least there's the legacy grandpa leave behind..
the memories that will last till forever...
at least we had the moments before...
and there will be no regret..

~ back to reality ~

grrrhhhh....
my 3 days break came to and end...
woaahh....
happy moments , free of works and stress..
i really enjoy the break..
but what can i do ??
let's just continue the journey...




this time back...
ALL my relatives had came back and we had our reunion...
we had steamboat..
enjoyable....
but i realised that my grandpa's health had turned worse...
each few weeks i back visit him,i felt my heart was aching...
i tried to control my tears...
he even kept the dried mango i love just for me...
this veery strong bond and kinship...
how can i bear the lose of him one day ?
i don't want he to see my crying...
i shall just let GOD decide everything...
how much i wish i can spend more time to accompany him...


so from now on..
i will live my life to the fullest..
appreciate and care about every single soul that you love...
don't leave behind feeling regret...
'regret' is the feeling that will haunt us and we will never find peace..

so in the start of new week ahead...
i shall control my temper and never get mad easily...
be cheerful all the time and have cultivate positive-thinking...
may GOD show me the right path...
and to have the great energy to fight for the rights...

# CHEERS #

~ for the first time ~

Yesterday  i along with 3 dear friends went to the town...
hang-out ~
we took a cab there...
for the first time we went out together...they are all so damn funny..we seem laughing till our intestines burst out lo...
we went for a great shopping-spree...
dian said she spent $$ so easily as drinking water..
that's true she was really a shopaholic, shopping-queen...

we bought the same shirts,same gown,same shoes,same facial products,same watch, same necklace...
LOL...
we are going be 'two-in-one'...
but it's feeling great and awesome...

then we had our meal at village garden...
steamboat....
its super hot,sour  made my tongue numb..the homemade chilli sauce was killing...
then we had our movie...
'X-MEN : FIRST CLASS'...all of us was sooo in love with the PROFESSOR X=CHARLES..
he is not very handsome like edward cullen,
but he portray something that made us fall in love with him..
i simply can't say what's that...
it's like a chemistry ~
i wish i had the same ability as professor...
as he has the ability to read into everyone's minds..
so he knows well what you are thinking...
wow soo great..,
how i wish i have this ability...
so i know what he is thinking ...
anyway its inpossible....
BUT THAT'S INDEED SOMEONE WITH THIS NATURE ABILITY...
perhaps only ten in this whole wide-world~

~ recovery ~

today woke up...

my friend say my face had slightly recover...

perhaps better than yesterday...

but i still fell itchy...

pray that all this will over soon....

and heal soon...

i don't want to scare people away lol...~

after this going to hang out with my gang at town...

yeeeppieee...

i simply love weekend...

let's play the party rock anthem..~

enjoy at the time being....

if not i'm sure the coming following weeks...

the overloaded works that have to do...

will drown us  for sure ~

that's all...

once again...
GOD , i PRAY that my face willl recover faster....

 hopefully by  next week it will gain its clarity complexion ~

...CHEERS...

great day...great friend~

~daily supplement ~

~ dictionary of law ~

from now on this will  be my 'daily supplement'...

this magic book will have the answers to all my questions...

that's what lecturer said...

but it's true...

furthermore...

this book was really amazing...

it can make me sleepy at  few seconds...

 and make me fall asleep at few minutes lol..

just now i was only flipping this book..and i went unconscious..~

zzzZZZzzZZZ...

i'm really so hopeless...

* sigh *

     

 

i realised i'm not the type that like to memorize all the facts...

but i have to ,

i need to...

i promise i won't give up like i used before...

I CAN'T !!

WHEN THE WORLD SAYS GIVE  UP ,

'HOPE' ACTUALLY WHSPERS :

TRY IT ONE MORE TIME...~

     

miracle does happen...

and we have to create the very 'miracle'...

❤❤BACK TO DECEMBER ❤❤

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.


So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.


These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.


And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".


So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.


I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night --
The first time you ever saw me cry.


Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.


I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.


But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind


I go back to December all the time.
All the time.

~ mine ~

...sad good-bye...

I'm sitting all alone in my room...

once again I'm thinking of my life...

My past is passing me by...

a lot of pain,, a lot of tears...

That's how I remember it...

There were a lot of days that I could only cry...

My hope was faded away...

I wanted to say goodbye to everything...

Now I'm laughing and feeling fine...

Sometimes I still cry, inside and outside...

But that's different then in the past...

Damn...Im a fool...

Cause if I really said goodbye,,

 I will never

feel this lovely feeling anymore...

I wanted to say goodbye to everything deep inside...

It's a great feeling,,
called love..

And I'm so thankful for finding my love..

that's making me stronger day after day...

There was a time that I wanted to say goodbye,,

but Now I want to live...
on my own...

*poems....by nickole*

*..LoVe PoEm..*

 Since I met you...
I've fallen in love with you
at least a hundred times...
for a hundred different reasons...
Sometimes I fall in love with you ,,
when I watch you doing something you enjoy...
Sometimes I fall in love with you ,,
when I listen to your amazing sound...
Sometimes I fall in love with you ,,
just thinking about you...
remembering all the memories we've made...


falling in love for the first time,
staying in love during the rough times,
finding more to love about each other every day...
And whenever I think about ,,
the wonderful things that lie ahead of us,,
I fall totally and completely in love with you...
..all over again..



*... loving poems..by Shynebrite...*

diamonds or stones ??

never ever take someone for granted...
hold every person you love dearly...
close to your heart...

...because...
one day...
we might wake up...
and realize that..
actually...


you had lost a *diamond*...
while you were too busy...
collecting the *stones*

so its up to us to decide...
which are the real diamond or simply just a stone ~

suNNy day...♥♥

a very sunny day today..
what should v do at this such a warm sunny day ??
hmmm...get yourself cool...

...chill down...

planning for an icy splash at gunung ledang aka. ledang fall...

with all my cousins...
yeah i miss waterfall...
im coming now...
have a great sunday everyone.......


CHEERS...